“Self-hate. A deep, black depression. Hating everyone. Believing you’re better than everyone, and that they aren’t worthy of your company. Seeing life in a purely mechanical way. Not being able to weigh consequences. Pushing everyone away. Helplessness. Being obsessed with sensations. Feeling like an insect. Seeing the worst in everyone. When it’s happening, it feels to you like you’re seeing what people and life are really like. Happiness becomes an illusion, a veil set over everyone else’s eyes. You alone see things for what they truly are. You wish someone else could see. But everyone else is blind. Just blind.”
-subwayrider from Personality Cafe
To be honest, it’s kind of scary sometimes how in tune other INFJs are with my own worst fears. These are pretty much my thoughts exactly on what my worst fear (as an INFJ) would be like. Basically, a god-complex or a superiority-complex. I never want to have that out of fear of feeling like absolutely no one understands me (which is completely absurd - the world is full of a beautiful assortment of people who could help you in all different sorts of ways), forgetting how to be humble, gracious, respectful, & (most importantly) just forgetting how to be happy…with anything. I’m especially resonating with the talk about disillusioning yourself into feeling like “the worst is what is realistic & nothing is going to get better from here because that is the way the world works. Happiness is a trick. Everyone/everything is beneath me because they are only fooling themselves with lies of happiness.” (I’m not going to lie-) In some ways, it makes sense & I have times where I feel like that, but I always manage to pick myself up, one way or another. I stop & I find myself again.
INFJs have deep & complex minds full of many theories & views. We have a very special way of seeing many viewpoints, how the “wrong thing” could be the perfect solution in the situation, how human pain works in emotional terms, how we can communicate through touching & eye contact, rather than speech. We know more about the world than what we lead others to believe (just because they misjudge our age or our appearance). Sometimes, that knowledge is too much, but we have to pick ourselves up & turn our perspectives & clear our minds & seek truth in the right places. Too much time with our own, dark thoughts can be our ultimate destruction. It’s simply so important for INFJs to remember that.